I am not taking Biggie to Essen.
Now when I say “Decision made” I mean “of course I will second-guess myself about a squillion bajillion times before I go.”
But for now, it is a definite no. And even knowing what a soft touch I am, I’d say her chances of going are well under 10%, even with a complete behavioural turn-around.
I told her on Wednesday and she really didn’t believe me.
I told her on Friday and she ran away. And I didn’t notice.
Let me explain.
We had all the doors open because the cool change had finally arrived (it didn’t last long … sigh …). She started on at me about it and I said, darling, you need to understand that it’s just not going to happen this year. You’re not ready, and it’s not reasonable of me to expect you to be. You’re only nine, you have a long time to grow up and be ready to travel. This is not your year. I’ve booked a hotel room now.
Tears and she stormed off (I assumed, down to her bedroom).
Five minutes or so later, we hear a noise at the front gate. There she is – she had stormed not down to her bedroom but out of the house completely.
We talked about it this morning, and she was calm and reasonable. Here’s irony: If she was like that more often, she would be coming with me. She seemed to understand my point that Fraser is not coming because I won’t have time for him (this not strictly true) and so it doesn’t make much sense to take her, when she would need (demand) even more of my time and attention.
She said that what upset her most was that I had told her I wouldn’t book my flight till April, but she felt booking the hotel was the same as booking the flight. That’s a pretty fair way to feel, and I explained that I felt it wouldn’t be fair to keep her hanging on once I had made my decision. She seemed to be OK with that and started chattering about what we will be doing next year.
We also talked about why running away is not really a good plan.
Surely one of those conversations will stick?
Also: Did I mention that I am going to EXPLODE with excitement? Because OMG, I am going to ESSEN!