Blech. I’ve now been drawn into the “shilling” discussions at Boardgamenews.
I started a few times to write a detailed rebuttal, but decided that it’s not worth the hassle. I am feeling pretty sad about it all, though.
Once again, there seems to be a bunch of haters who can’t stand to see people being excited about gaming projects.
If I couldn’t write about Agricola or Le Havre, if I couldn’t mention That Gaming Site where I am an Admin, if I couldn’t mention That Gaming Site where I play games (because my town gets resources if you play there), if I couldn’t mention That Gaming-promoting Organisation I am a part of … wow, I’d have nothing to write about. I imagine someone will start complaining, soon, that I am writing about That Elitist Event I am Going To – you know, the one with two hundred thousand people attending, the one that I am spending thousands of dollars of my own money to attend – because I am excited about it.
I’ve been careful NOT to write much about the stuff I’ve been working on, precisely because I didn’t want this sort of bullshit – which is why I even missed a few columns. Given that I’ve played at least twice as many games of Agricola as I have of anything else since my copy arrived at the start of last December, it would be impossible never to mention it.
Yes, I get excited about these things, yes, I talk about them. That’s the person I am. The real irony is that I checked with the site owner whether it was OK to talk about Le Havre before I posted my most recent column. And I’ve passed on other “scoops” that I felt were too close to home.
While there are a few noisy people complaining, my feeling is still that the general gaming public is interested in what goes on behind the scenes, and is hungry to know more.
I know I am.
I wonder whether it really is a clash of communication styles, more than anything else.
When something good or exciting happens to me, I want to share it with people, especially with the people I care about. Whoo hoo, I got a new haircut. Whoo hoo, I am working on a game that is going to be great. Whoo hoo, OMGESSEN!. Whoo hoo, X– no wait, you won’t catch me out that easily.
This has often been an issue for Fraser. Friends come over, I say, whoo hoo, look at my cute new PC, he gets upset and angry with me. Because he feels that I am being small-minded and petty, skiting/bragging/boasting about whatever it is, that I am saying “Look at me, I am better than you because I have X” — when actually, what I am saying is, “Please share my excitement, this is the cause of it this time.” And because of who I am, I tend to be excited about LOTS of things. I understand that he finds it stressful, so I try not to be excited about things around him.
I wonder whether the same thing is happening with these people. A couple of people (‘we’) write about projects we are excited about, not to mislead other people into thinking they are wonderful but because we are excited about them. And it’s OK if people look at that and say, “Well, I am not excited about that, it isn’t really interesting for me.” – but it’s wrong to suggest that it is dishonest to be excited in the first place or to share that excitement.
Overreacting and ranting a bit because I am coming down with a cold. Fraser’s now on antibiotics and heading into his second week of being really sick. I leave in 15 days (it will be 14 in 12 minutes) and MUST BE HEALTHY. Yikes. I bought cold prevention tablets at the supermarket today, and am contemplating a trip to the doctor to beg them to do something, anything really.